Being a creature of habit is not as dismal as some may think. Think about it; the agonizing task of making a decision is eliminated and disappointment doesn’t even have a chance to show it’s ugly face. Plus, the wonderful servers in the world can get on with their lives instead of waiting patiently by your table as you decide if you want to try the lemon crusted salmon or the veggie pasta primavera (I’d go with the salmon). Seriously, making decisions is time consuming, somewhat painful and there’s always a risk because the outcome is unknown ( the salmon may have been totally overcooked). I, myself, am not a creature of habit and truly enjoy the new experiences and variety that I am fortunate enough to have in my life. That’s not to say that I don’t have my regulars; I certainly do. Sleeping in on Saturdays, Stella Artois and Chef Boyardee raviolis ( ew, I know….) are all habits that I enjoy immensely and wouldn’t want to give up for anything. But those are inconsequential habits…well, except for the extra 10 lbs that I just can’t seem to shake-I’m sure Stella and the chef are somewhat to blame ( ok, so maybe it’s 20 lbs, but whatever).
The whole point of my pointless rambling is that I really wish that I could be more of a creature of habit. I used to think it was boring and unadventurous and, well, stagnate. However, every five to six years and get this feeling, this itch to make a change and not just a simple change like repainting my kitchen (already did that), but a major change that will completely uproot me and send me in a whole new direction. See where I’m going with this? This feeling causes me to have to make a decision, a BIG one that may involve huge risks and possible devastating outcomes…and I truly wish that I could just be satisfied right here and now with where I am in life; physically, emotionally and mentally. Courtney says this is human growth; that we all get this feeling and some choose to do something with it, but others don’t. The last time this feeling emerged I moved to San Diego.
This time I’m moving out of the country.
A Beautiful Mess... 
Karena, thank you for sharing your blog with me. I think you are embarking on a journey of a life time, something I wish I could do, and am so excited for you. I’ve really enjoyed reading so far and am excited to read more. Although we only spent a school year together I consider you a friend and am here to support you any way possible. Take care, keep your spirits up when you feel alone, have fun, and drink plenty of sake ; )
I’ve definitely got the sake part down! Thank you, Kimberly…I appreciate the support and am glad that technology allows me to share the adventure. Have a great start to your school year!!