I recently purchased a subscription to iMatch. Basically, you pay a yearly fee to listen to all of your music on iTunes on any device. Considering that I’ve had several computers in the past few years, this was a great option for me as I am iTunes illiterate and do not know how to sync all of my devices. Anyway….short story made long, I am happier than a puppy with two peters to be able to listen to all of my tunes…most of which I haven’t heard since last June when I said good-bye to America’s Finest City. I am currently listening to David Gray’s album “Life in Slow Motion”. I know this means nothing to you, but have you ever had a flood of emotions inundate you when you listen to a particular song? I’m sure you have, but this album really pulled on my nostalgic heartstrings as it was a constant in my (then) cd player when I first moved to San Diego. It seriously seems like forever ago when I packed up and headed south…what a tough transition that was for me. When I think back I can recall spending hours on the phone with family and friends because I felt so incredibly disconnected and lonely. It was a miserable first year and as much as I ended up loving San Diego and my newfound family there, I’m not sure if I’d want to go through that again.
But I took the chance.
Listening to the melancholy tone of David’s voice, I am swept back to that moment in time and am so grateful that this transition has been a million times easier. I just can’t help but to wonder why? I am, after all, 6,000 miles away versus 600. Does the actual distance even matter? Will that first step always hold the crown for the hardest part of this journey? I hope so. Being so far away isn’t easy by any means. I miss everyone more than I could ever describe, but this transition has been so different. I am lost in my own mind most of the time as I take in my new surroundings, wrap my head around a new and very different culture, nurture new friendships and try not to let the pressures of my new job consume me. I’ve been here almost nine months and I think that the fog that I have been trudging through is finally beginning to clear. Plus, I have my main man here now and my new house is finally a place that I can call home so the transition phase is slowly coming to an end. I look forward to the next phase as I feel that I will finally be able to form a clear perspective of all this newness.
I know I am way behind on writing and this isn’t one of the topics on my list, but with my moment of nostalgia came a compulsion to write. Coming soon:
and Hanami (cherry blossoms!).
Love to you all and I miss your faces like crazy!